| Dear friends, thx for your caring and please don't be afraid that I will hit you because of your comment!! (我冇咁小氣!!!) I know my own problem and I am still finding a way to solve it. Maybe I should not pay too much attention on my exam performance or presentation, but this is the way I find my own value. I know it is very dangerous to do that (我社工講過la) I believe that I solve this problem someday in the future. So wish me luck!!! I also have some words that I would like to say to another friend. Everyone have their own value in a group and this value doesn't only depends on result in study or GPA. Maybe all of us should learn to be confidence and I don't think our confidence is only come from study. Sometimes people may have some judgement on our work, but what we need to do is to think about the comment they give us and gain improvement in them (呢樣野我都要學). So that we won't make such a mistake anymore. |
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| 我呢排發覺自己做人好似戴左一層面具，好多時候我都冇用自正既我去見人，有時什至好心淡，身邊既人要求我關心佢地，必須達到佢地既希望....... 個日聽完professor講我地做counsellor必須同時as a professional and as a person. 睇黎我係呢方面真係做得好差，我好想有人care一下我既感受，but there is no one there. I feel terrible these days. Every things around me make me feel bad, even my mum. I don;t know how to face with these feeling. Mum told me that we cannot always ask for other's care. Sometimes i will think, is this her excuse of not caring about my feeling? Also, the only thing my dad care about is my grade in school. He always think that I am not working hard enough. I wonder if he really cares about me. Sometimes i will also think, have i done something wrong to them? This is not only for my parents, but also some of my friends. They are supposed to be my closest people, but they are the people who hurt me the most. |
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| 問過D朋友，佢地都話我呢排塊面好"黑"...................後來我向阿媽證實左呢個的確係事實，點算好？？？？？ 我呢排個人真係好燥，係好多地方都唔開心，又係同朋友相處上遇到問題，自己都唔知點算好，唔知道朋友既異常係咪因為我既行為，心裡面一直想有朋友會關心一下我會唔會唔開心，事實上卻少之又少，maybe佢地認為我係唔需要關心，因為我可以理好自己既事，but我係唔得家......... 我曾經以為自己可以離開個一個得一個人，好鬼寂寞既世界，事實上唔得，朋友可能會話我未必可以明白佢地得一個人既心情，但我相信我會係最明白呢種情況既人，畢竟我曾經生活過係呢種世界好多年，個段時間既我好憎學校裡面個Ｄ所謂"同學"既存在，什至想佢地死，而我自己亦不斷揾辦法脫離個個世界，什至有一Ｄ好極端既諗法，我真係好唔想返去個段時間........... |
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| 我究竟有幾耐無向人大大咁發過脾氣呢? 我曾經以為發人脾氣唔係一件好事，但係原來有時唔係適當時候表達一下自己既不滿會仲唔開心，ｍａｙｂｅ我係時候需要發洩一下自己既情緒．．．．．． |
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| 存在感，呢樣野我好似由細到大都唔多覺有，但係到而家好似多返ｄ既時候，個感覺又唔係真係好好，我始終係好希望可以變成個ｄ好容易就融入到其他人既人，但係我好似永遠都做唔到，係咪性格問題呢？ｏｒ係我用既方法唔好呢？ 有ｄ唔開心，當我打開個電話想打比朋友講下既時候，電話個ｌｉｓｔ好鬼長，但係可以打既電話居然只係得兩三個，真係有ｄ"灰"．．．．．． |
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